questions from a different perspective

I was recently in a very traditional church service which invited an Evangelist to come and speak.  I didn’t think churches still had them come speak.  Don’t get me wrong I’m not against them, but this service was over the top.  For the past two years 95% of my relationships have been with unchurched people.  It scares me to think of inviting them to church.  Here’s questions I wrote down:

• Why are you yelling at me?  Are you mad at me?
• Why do you sit on the platform like a celebrity?
• Why do you want me to give you $ when you dress better then me?
• If I just put money in an offering for you, why are you giving me a commercial to buy more of your CD’s?
• Why do you raise your voice up and down, do you do that all the time?  If not, are you for real?
• You are quite overweight.  why should I believe that you are disciplined enough to live out what you’re trying to convince me about right now?
• Why do you try to shake my emotions with an organ in the background?
• Why do you talk like your black when you are white?
• Why do you speak so Christianese, that I can’t understand the words your speaking?
• Why is it I can’t understand you because your approach blocks my hearing?
• How is it I’ve grown up in this sort of service my whole life and even done this same sort of preaching and thought this was the way to do it?
• How could you expect me to come back tonight and hear you again when I am so bored this morning?
• Why are you telling me these huge numbers of people that have been saved in your crusades?  Where are they now?  Am I supposed to be impressed?
• Why aren’t you happy or ever smile?
• Why do you say, “I” comments like you are talking as though you are God himself?
• Where are you going and what’s the one thing I am supposed to leave with?  I’m drained trying to follow you and am confused.
• Am I suppose to clap after you raise your voice?
• Why do you talk of sin and hell so much?
• Why do you call me “friend” when you don’t even know me?
• Why do I have to raise my hand at the end of service?
• Did this Jesus guy act anything like you?  If he does I don’t think I want to meet him.
• Are you serious?  You really want me to come down to an altar in front of all these people I don’t know and let people lay hands on me that I’ve never seen?
• Am I going to be part of your statistics now that I raised my hand?  Are you going to put me in a denominational magazine to confirm your gifting and so you can schedule more services with other churches and repeat this same message to them?

Perhaps some of my questions were harsh.  It’s just I have such a righteous anger and holy discontent about this stuff right now.  I went into the bathroom and looked myself in the eyes.  I asked God, “why am I so mad?  Why does this make me sick?  Please lord, if I ever come across like this, change me even right now change me.  If I’m being too critical or judgmental of a fellow believer forgive me.